Boredom

After a month of holiday, its back to classes again. It can be so amazing how you can feel so motivated yet so lazy at the same time. For me, the christmas holiday was a welcome break from all the books. For others, it was time to get working and prepare for exams. I don't have exams this January, hence, it was a true holiday for me. Yet, it just didn't feel right. You know how when you're busy with classes, you're always looking forward to the holidays? And then, when you're in the middle of the holiday, you feel so bored that you wish time would just move on, and the classes would start as soon as possible. Just so you can get on with it. That's how I felt.

You always think that way I guess, especially if you're doing a 5 year course. I've still got 3 and a half years to go. I can't believe that 1 and a half years have passed by so quickly. Yet, the long years staring in front of me do seem more daunting when I come to think about it.

I guess all this has to do with aims and what you set out to achieve for yourself. If you don't have a master plan of what you plan to do, then you end up being so bored that nothing you do can ever help. Sometimes I feel that way, no amount of sleep, football, tv or anything can help. You are just so lost and demotivated, you want things to go on already. So yeah, even though I don't have any exams now (Thank God), I actually wish I did. That way, I could spend my time better, with the pressure of exams helping to motivate me to work harder.

My exams are once a year, and that exam coming up in May is still 4 months away, but how I wish it were next week. Just so I have an excuse to work my ass off....